Unacceptable Blog Neglect!
What The Hell Kind of Blog Is This? I’ve allowed my own personal blog to be neglected. This is something I don’t like and making an effort to change. I’ve kept my goals on several other areas, that I’ve let this slip. I’m calling myself out on this and making a conscious effort to improve. The crazy part is, I do have other blogs and I’ve not let them slip – some old analogy about a shoemaker’s shoes comes to mind but I’ll avoid that… I can’t believe I’ve let me blog get like this. OK maybe I’m a little hypercritical, but it’s important to me to blog better…
I’m aware I only have 5 blog readers. I appreciate each of you!
I had a friend point out recently that my enthusiasm and energy are endlessly addictive but likely puts people off at first (reference was “how can this guy be this happy” and I can answer that but in much more than this post) – so, I’m busting out of my shell and dumping some crappy rants today, fortunately, I don’t have a lot to rant about.
I’m in a constant state of gratitude and this year has been one that’s put me through many tests. My reward for this has been almost constant life-awakening epiphanies (see my Mind Satori for more on this) – it’s been great. This week seems to have 80% of unexpected time sucking chaos (the “little things” adding up) – Things that should take minutes taking hours. I accept what’s within my control, and at times am easily overwhelmed with uncontrollable delays (traffic, idiots) and realized being blessed with a streamlined perspective comes with harsh awareness that not everyone else is. I almost want to have some “life cheat sheets” to hand out to people; like wallet-sized cards that advise on how to enjoy your life better. One of those (the one I’m telling myself now) is to not let other people’s bullshit disrupt my happiness. I don’t. This week has just been an overwhelming amount of other people’s nonsense BS.
Maybe this is why I’ve not blogged here – I don’t want to share negativity. I make sure to over-share my happiness but I don’t like to come here angry. There’s things I can’t control, for instance the Kingsbrooke & Property Specialists homeowners association cycle – I’m caught in a system where they seem to invent new violations annually (has added up to thousands in what feels to me like extortion). It’s such an overwhelmingly negative part of my life and I often find myself just giving in over and over as writing a check hurts less than the fight, though parts of this offended me on much more than a financial level, and that’s where I’m mixed. I feel some sense of responsibility to stand up for myself and others. Then I realize my fight takes me from doing what I need to do to succeed. Fortunately, Kingsbrooke may actually be my worse example of this type of bullshit. I’m grateful the other areas of my life aren’t this dramatic and need to learn how to not give them my energy. That was my other epiphany this year – there are mean and bad people in this universe. I’m unsure how I lived 40 years without accepting this. I need to find a way to separate from these energy vampires.
I’m taking an exercise and meditation break later to refocus energies. I’m the “eternal optimist” by those close to me, describing tenacity. Lately, I’ve definitely been uncovering more challenges and at a rapid velocity, making it hard to take a break, yet knowing more and more I need to. My eternal optimism at times is a fault as allows me to invest way too much energy into people or causes without any remote possibility of a return. It was like watching a stock declining – some expectation to “go long” once enough hours/dollars are into something. This just doesn’t work. At times it’s very important to cut losses and move forward. That’s what today is about for me. Getting the shit done that I need to get done. Back to blogging….
